Christmas Time In Here

And just like THAT, I knew.

Last night, working on justinab.com, into my head, from seemingly NOWHERE jumped -Hooah-
I was typing away and suddenly I said a little prayer...ah God please help this country(My Brad/me were watching the debate) Then it flipped to, and please help me with what I am doing-makeingthe rightchoices- helpthesesamazingpeople- etc.
In my mind I suddenly hear, HOOah.( yes, it was Al Pacino's voice.)

The Scent of a Woman. My physical response to the word was so strong I had to go find the movies clips to remind myself of what I was obsessed about all those years ago. I remember watching the movies and reaching up to find my face wet and not being sure when or why. It was when I was two of course.

This is where I was for years. But I am past that now. He reminded me of THEN...and

Of NOW with the googled  onomatopoeic word HOOAH

I. Love.

On JustinaB Seer,  my eCommerce site blog, I wrote about LOVE. justinab seer
I feel thing intensely. I believe every emotion is connected to love. I love intensely. I love things, smells tastes, Brad's rouge curl, I. Love.
There is something wild in what I feel. Something hot and aggressive. When I see something I cannot get out of my mind I hunt it. No less, no more. When I find it everyone with which I come in contact will meet it, see it; whatever they want to know I will share. There is something wild in the way I love. There is always something wild and free about what and whom I love.

I would not have it any other way.http://www.flickr.com/photos/oprisco/8074517601/in/photostream

Get to the point.

This seemed fitting... what I am feeling ...



and then I got sidetracked...

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and finally I am back on point.. well that and I am missing my niece, Cortlyn..this is our song....

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Free Falling

I remember saying in that Happily Ever After way "I have so much to tell and I will right here on my blog." The world was all sparkly and fresh. I was going to create a home for my man, find a job and  well, pretty much change the world or at least take it by storm. Then I became the Dean Of Enrollment  and moved three times in what I am told is Proper Dallas(I always thought you put the proper after the Dallas but I guess it is said differently here?), finally buying a place within a year and a half of that promise.  I was never allowed to roll my eyes or sign when I was young but if you could see me you would witness the mother of all eye rolling.. signing going down as I type.  HA.

Ah right , yes Well then, here we are getting the band back together,  so to speak, after three years. Life caught up with a vengeance.  I worked twelve to fourteen hour days and traveled the world. House.  What house? I rarely saw it. I did see Australia  China, Brazil, much of Canada, most of the US, including Alaska and Hawaii, but not much of my house. Now, I am looking for a new job. I want a job that gives me a bit of time to enjoy my space. One that will allow me to enjoy working my eCommerce  site and actually have time to blog about it. justinab.com  (That is another story)
  I am not opposed to hard work and long hours but is this what I am suppose to do?   I am looking, seeking, waiting, praying....change is not exactly fun,  you know the"any time great change comes there is chaos " Well, I am living it with no contract in sight and, no matter my efforts,  no new job waiting. Funny how faith suddenly shows up in a big way when it is all you have from which to draw.  What a life, and to think , three years ago I was laminating bad hair.

Hear that song Free Falling playing in the back ground of this post.